Sometimes I just want to get away

Not to be a downer post or anything, but it is what it is. I don't know what's eating away at me. Is it the lack of interest in my job? The lack of an education. The lack of comfort in my own home? Other people's problems? My own dwindling self confidence or perhaps the lack of inspiration. Talent even. I've just been feeling really worthless and self-loathing. Sometimes I blame it on the PSM, but sometimes, I don't even have that to blame it on. I'm depressed because I can't get over all the little things bothering me. I try and it does work sometimes, but I'm so easily put down. I'm proud of the things I've done in the past and proud of the things that I have to look forward to, but I'm just having such a hard time getting over that hump called present. Its really affecting everything about me. I think I'm a meaner person and I'm more easily hurt. I feel bad and I guess I make other people feel bad. My life doesn't seem to fit into other people's anymore. I know, I'm just going through a really hard time and I know it will pass. Just lately, I feel like I have to get through it on my own this time. I can't seem to find the comfort I need and those who were there for me are not. Its been more and more so every year. I can deal with it though. Its just that, I wish people would understand what I'm going through and know that I need space and I don't want to be scolded. Ah. Its so hard to explain what's going on in my head. I feel like such a teenager. Dammit. I'm really really stupid. I did it to myself. Anyways. My new room stinks of wood polisher and I've got a sensitive nose.