March 8th

Was the beginning of my new life. The life of better shit. So, its been 2 weeks since that all important day and I will fill you in on it.

On March 8th, I was laid-off from work. That first week of unemployment was probably the best week of my life since I got back from New York. Probably one of the best weeks, period. It was on the surface, quite a wonderful job. With the title of graphic designer, I was paid more then minimum wage, I could sit all day on my butt, I could take long lunch breaks, and in general, my boss was pretty alright...But underneath it all, I was in denial. I was unhappy. The hours were long, grueling, and literally sucked the life out of me. It ranged from too much work, to boring, to painfully boring. It was more painfully boring then anything. I got headaches from staring at the screen all day, back aches from bending towards the computer and butt aches from sitting on my ass for hours on end. And all in all, I'm not even proud of the work I did there. My boss, though a nice guy, never gave me proper deadlines, which lead me to rushing through the whole thing at the end and making huge mistakes. Actually, I was somewhat disturbed by how things were being run there. Though I'm hardly an expert, I know that when redesigning anything, it takes more then just a quick check for it to go into production because if there is one mistake, the whole batch goes to waste. I am responsible for my work, but really, its not my fault that you rushed into production without the proper checks. I firmly believe that I am not at fault. Anyways. I HATED WORKING THERE AND THANK GOD ITS OVER.

My pride is worth more then the work I did there and now I can actually concentrate on making beautiful things for myself and those who appreciate it and not for consumers and my boss who choose big ugly text over composition and beautiful design. I've started sketching more and though its not all great stuff, its still stuff. I'm also taking figure drawing classes again and its really helping get back into drawing.

I just finished applying to college as well, so that's off my chest. I just have fafsa to complete, scholarships to apply for, and summer to plan. It has been fairly relaxed aside from the bumps in life that I hope soon will smooth out. I also recently got a new job as a waitress in downtown Little Tokyo! Some would call this a step down, but for me, its definitely a step up! I get to move around, I get to talk to people, and its in such a nice area. My old job was located within the warehouse district and it was so gloomy and there were days when I use to look outside into the blue sky and clouds outside from my window...It was depressing. But now I get to work in cute Little Tokyo! The metro also stops right in front of where I work, so no more traffic!

So my classes are as follows: French 1, German 3, Figure Drawing 2, Art History 2. :3 French is driving me nuts because I can't pronounce anything and its always hard learning a new language. XD All in all, my classes are alright, but I can't wait to go to college!! EEEE. German is still crazy hard...Lol. As it should be I guess...

Anyways. I'm still working through life...Still things here and there that are troubling me, but I feel so much better about myself now. I still cannot guarantee new posts, but I will try!